I’ve been attending church since my anxiety started almost two years ago. I’ve noticed when I say something that I’m frustrated with I get shut down with how I could have it worse.
You don’t understand, this is my worst. I have never, in my entire life, had crippling fear. Getting out of bed is a challenge, daily. I’m depressed and feeling like a terrible mother. Maddy says I’m not, she makes me feel better but IT ISNT HER JOB TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.
I got a job offer on Tuesday, I’ve been sitting on it for days. Seeking advice from my coworkers, my friends on Facebook…but what I really want is a best friend to talk to.
I went shopping today, and felt badly because I was shopping alone. No one invites me to do things with them. I invited 35ish people to a Thirty One party, 2 people said they would come. I rescheduled it twice so people could come.
Why doesn’t anyone like me?
I wanted a new job, a new car (one that doesn’t give me anxiety), and friends. I don’t understand why I don’t have any friends. And I’m terribly sad about it.